I've been living a lie...

I've been living a lie you see, I thought it wouldn't hurt anyone. I've been living a lie you see, I thought was true. I've been living a lie you see, I thought i was Invincible. I thought if i believed it enough, it'd actually be true.
I've been living a lie you see, I'm who i thought i was.
When I'm hurt, I pull back. Like when you accidently touch a hot stove. It makes it seem like nothing's wrong, but in fact i'm scared. I'm in pain. I'm cryin'. I'm shivering like a baby.
When I'm hurt I pull back. I make it seem so easy, I make it seem like nothing happened. But I'm really like a child in mall, who can't find her mommy. I'm so scared.
The last time i was hurt, i pulled away. I kept silent and bore the pain. And i pulled a bit farther. So far away that i nearly lost you.
I won't keep silent now, I don't wish to lose you again. We need to talk, you see i've been living a lie. A lie i thought to be innocent. A lie, that I didn't know would hurt you. A lie that i thought would provide me an armor. It only left me more open. My lie hurt everyone. I'm sorry.

Will you talk with me? Will you hear the words that come out of my mouth? Will you be there for me when i need you most? Or will you run away? Run when i need you most?
Will you sit beside me? Or will you walk away?

Cause i need you to listen. But if you won't sit with me. Then i have nothing that i want to say to you. But listen to these 3 words. Even if you never hear another thing else i say. Listen to these 3 words; "I LOVE YOU".

You dont....

You don't have time for me, but you have time for him.
You don't have the energy for me, but you have the energy to dance.
You don't care how i feel, but you care for someone else.
You don't love me, you love someone else.


The Swords swing as the men fought. "Her honor, i will defend till my death" the young man shouted.
"Indeed" the older man calmly nodded.
With a flick of his wrist, the older man had disarmed the young one. Like an elder lion, victoriously standing over his new prize. A thrust of his arm plunged the sword into the young man's heart, only the thoughts of his love, keeping him alive.

A smile then a shudder, came across the older man. Like a lion, he had just won his meat, the younger man's lady. Then something brought him back to reality, the cold shocking pain in his chest was hard to ignore. The younger man had a dagger somewhere. The sneaky bastard had got him.
"Never will thy have her" barely mouthing out the words. "Defend her to my death i have."
"I'm sorry we'll never get to spend the rest of our lives together, but at least thou art safe."
To that his love replied "No, we won't get to spend our lives together. But smile, we have our afterlife."
And jumped his lover did, over the walls of Schmidt. His spirit caught her and together they flew up to the sky.

Blade for a thorn.

[GO AWAY, Don't REad this. get lost][ Harticus will get you if i don't]

I distance myself from the roses because i know it pains you to see me walk amoung their thorns. What hurts you hurts me, thus I choose to forsaken all roses but thee. So much so, that I shant even breathe any rose but thee.
Why? My poor heart yearns to know, Why does thou choose to frolic in the bed of blades? It kills me to see thy body cut agaisnt the edges. Why does thou continue to let my heart remain in agony? Did i not protect thee valiantly enough? Did i cut thee by mistake? Why does thou stand strong in their defense, but ready to break my steel at a moment's notice? It breaketh my heart, but i hide it from thee, it tortures my mind, but i hide it form thee, my soul it chains, but i hide it from thee.
I shall remain silent, not a finger shall i raise in protest. I guess, as long as thou art happy, i've done my duty's call.